My name is Mariana, a 29-year-old massage therapist from Morelia, Mexico. Ever since I discovered tantra in my early 20s, my perception of intimacy and control has altered in the most profound and exhilarating ways.
It was an ordinary Tuesday, I remember, when I found myself drawn toward my favorite porn, a tastefully curated illustration of tantric massages. There was something so hypnotic about the way the masseur hovered his hands over that woman's bare skin, never really touching, yet evoking an almost electric intimacy. The skillful play of control left a mark on me, influencing my career and personal life in a way I could never imagine.
This tantalizing encounter with tantra fueled a fiery yearning within me. I desired to understand the art, to exercise this enigmatic power and be the guiding light in the realm of pleasure. I embarked on the journey of mastering the depth and the fluidity of massages, weaving narratives of intense passion and an overtone of control into my practice. The sanctuary of my massage room became a playground where I toyed between submission and dominance, leading my clients to an edge, a precipice teetering between need and fulfillment.
Each session was an intimate dialogue, a discourse of unspoken words carried by sheer energy transference and heightened sensations. Every touch was a word, every stroke... a verse, every arch, and sigh... punctuations in our secret language. This silent communication echoed the teachings of tantra, permeating the space, setting a rhythm that pulsed with our synced heartbeats.
There is a sense of power that comes from being in control, from being the conductor of someone else's pleasure. This feeling, laced with trust and vulnerability, is as intoxicating as it is humbling. To be bestowed with such responsibility, to nurture a connection that ventures beyond the surface, is a privilege I relish.
At the age of 29, I stand as a woman whose life was fully dipped in the seductive world of tantra. I practice what some deem as taboo, yet I find it as natural as breathing. I am a masseur, a devotee of tantra, a wielder of control and a voyager in the exploration of human desire, completely unashamed of my favorite porn that led me here.  |